I posted a few days ago about my real-solutions instead of resolutions for this new year...and I thought I did a pretty good job of narrowing down the whirlwind that is God in my heart and mind right now into one blog post. So imagine my panic attack when Andrea was asking for us to pick just one WORD to describe our goals with Him for the coming 365 days!!!
I have a dear friend who has done this for a few years now. She spends time in prayer and deep thought... bending her own will to His for the sheer purpose of seeing His will for her life. I have always thought it was amazing that she could do it...amazing, but not for me. Surely, the One who made me to talk a mile a minute would never ask me to stop my chaos long enough to find just. one. word.
But as I read Andrea's words...I knew that He was prompting and whispering thru the Holy Spirit's excitement. I could feel the tugging to calm my own heart and mind for just a moment to pin-point the word that He has for me. In order to give me focus...steadiness...if even for a moment. Four-word descriptions poured out of my brain...three words...sheesh, I even got myself down to two pretty quickly. But ONE?? Just ONE???
I literally just sat staring, feeling myself a helpless cause because I couldn't just think of just. one. word.
Until there it was...
...singing softly as a leaf caught in a late summer breeze, it dropped down from Him to me:
Believe that He loves me...
Believe that He will defend,
and lift up
this simple creature to the places where He wants me to be...
...despite me being who I am
...because He loves me.
...even tho I still can't fathom why.
And now, I sit and smile...mainly because He could get me down to just. one. word...cuz now I have nothing else to say.
Listening to the whisper of "believe" while looking up as always...