...vulnerability...

Lent, Day 9

maybe i am naive in my hope

wishing

pleading

desiring

longing

cuz I really didn't expect to be back here

    i look across and smell freedom

    there

    waiting

    searching

    calling out my name

    so far removed from where i reside within

          the gap that exists between logic and emotion

          igniting

          straining
          hurting
          spinning out of control
          it breaks me till i want to stop fighting to care

                 when betrayal's fire touched my heart again
                  searing
                  penetrating
                  severing
                  breaking my heart
                  sensation begged to die and i want to let it

           i really don't mean to be this way

           silent

           ignoring

           reserving

           staying out of the fray
           but i just don't know how to do this with you

                   ...again

and so i can offer is a whispered pleading:
breathe
fight
no...just breathe
...please
All you have to do is breathe Him back in.

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Loving her...trusting Him...while looking up as always...