I could post an entry that wears a happy mask to make you think I am just fine
...that I have just been busy
...that I just haven't had the time or the thoughts needed to come and blog
I could make y'all think anything I wanted to as you can't see my eyes and you have no idea how honest I am being
...whether I am smiling
...whether the waters really run a calm crystal blue on my end of the screen
I could pretend that I don't know that I have painted an open window to my heart on this blog
...that I don't remember how honest I have always been
...that it doesn't matter if I am not honest now because you don't really know me
I could do all of that
...but then I wouldn't be me
...and that wouldn't be an honest reflection of Him
I need prayers.
I have a situation brewing in my life that involves real people
...the real me
I have made the step today
...that I feel He is calling me to
...that leaves me feeling vulnerable
...and overwhelmed by all the emotions that have been masked behind my silence on the issue
I am coming here, broken and hurting, and I simply ask you to join me in prayer as I do all I can to cling to His Truth even while the winds of life blow around me.
Thanking Him for all of you while looking up as always...