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Wednesday, June 2, 2010

...known and well-worn...

Lost in a song, my hand and journal play out the thoughts of a weary mind...one still weighted by the day's echoes that scream out, pressing in for attention. 

Line after line, the pen flows wild...my heart and mind, both laid bare in an effort to sleep, peaceful and free. 

The headphones block out the sound of the night around me, but a soft movement causes me to pause my altar time to look beside me...

...and it is then that I find a smile.

It's been ten years of that face next to me. 

Thru the ups and the downs...the nights of slumber nestled, coupled, snuggled together as one...the hours of careful non-touching as we hadn't actually made up from that day's "discussion"...the laughter and whispered chit-chat as we lay, each waiting to drift away into our private dream chambers...the morning greetings as the sun breaks thru the comfort of warm blankets and closed eyelids.

It's been ten years since I first set eyes on him. 

His hair is now ever so slightly peppered with time...we joke and he calls it "blonde", but I see the scattering of white mingled in with the dark brown and I smile, as those are mine...each and every one.  Soft lines around his eyes, from much laughter over the years, are still visible in the now relaxed skin and I study them, remembering moments of side-splitting, fell-to-my-knees laughter...and I giggle softly to myself from the movie in my mind.  The stubble of a chin left unshaved makes me want to reach out and stroke his face but I hold back...restrained for fear of distrubing this place that lets him drift, peaceful for just this little while.

It's been ten years of nights laying in this bed with him...and each one is a gift that makes me smile and drift away in the memories of moments I wouldn't trade for anything. 

Some have been perfect...some have been devastating. 

I have laughed...cried...hugged...stormed off, pouting...whispered...and even yelled...I have been, at times, both right and then very wrong...
...but in the ten years of this man, I know that if I can't be there with Him...


...there isn't a place I would rather be than here, with him.

holy experience
I ran across Ann Voskamp's blog today, The Bravest Affair A Married Woman Can Have, and I was instantly transported back to my thoughts last night as my own prince lay, sleeping, next to me.  As I have been lost to myself from the romance with my Maker this week, I have found that so many reminders of my relationship with Him come in the marriage to my husband...and I post this as a simple reminder of the simplicity of companionship, known and well-worn.

*Still* listening to Brooke Fraser's The Thief while looking up as always...

14 comments:

Diane said...

So sweet and beautiful! Glad you got him and Him by your side. :O)

Susan Forshey said...

What a wonderful breath of hope and joy and grace! And thank you for introducing me to Brooke Frasier's lovely song!

Kylie said...

So lovely, i love how truthful you are, in saying there is good and bad times. so many times we sugar coat things. Im so pleased you have him and Him next to you.
x

Heather of Swallowing A Moose said...

I know that feeling completely! It's a wondrful thing!

alicia said...

Love it!
They are both delighted to have YOU as well, of that I am certain!!

Lisa notes... said...

Oh, this is so beautiful. You have quite a way with words, and your heart is so obviously in love with your husband. You both are blessed.

Amy in Peru said...

I too am amazed when I think how much our Beloved God has taught me about Himself through my beloved husband... mind boggling.

amy in peru

Dianna said...

Precious post...thanks for sharing, Bina. And thank you for stopping by to visit today.

Jennifer @ Getting Down With Jesus said...

Glad you have your soul mate at your side, night by night by night. God bless you, sweet Bina.

Graceful said...

This is beautiful, Bina. Isn't the laughter the very best part?

So glad you find Ann's marriage series at Holy Experience -- this is perfect.

Cherie Hill said...

You are blessed sister...such a beautiful post...your heart poured out and it is a reflection of God's blessings in your life.
Hugs and prayers,
Cherie

Grandma Yellow Hair said...

What a blessing to find you as a follower so I could find your site.
This is such a beautiful story and enjoyed it very much.
I browsed your other post and what a writer you are and I can't wait to get to know you better
Thanks again for joining my site
Take care
Maggie

Karen said...

Bina, as usual, lovely words. Did you let your hubby see this? It's a loving tribute.

Sarah said...

Oh the sweetness of this post makes me want to curl up with my man. The wrinkles around his eyes. The way his skin tans and transports me back to our more carefree days.

So so sweet, Bina. Just lovely.

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