Not the "I wish I was still in bed sleeping" kind of tired, although the thought of being able to hide under the warmth of my covers sounds ever so appealing today.
No, it is more of the "Can't You just make it all stop for just a minute" kind of fatigue that is eating at me. The sad thing is that I can't even tell you what "it" is...I can only generalize it as "emotions".
I don't know if I am alone in my desire to run from the tsunami that is emotion to me...they pop up and I feel the definate need to flee in abject terror.
Fear run faster
Sadness can't we get a car to escape?
PAIN forget it, I'm too slow. just gonna lay down and die now...
I hate this about myself...that I can't just look my giants in the eye with the Truth of Life burning out from mine ...that I can't just be at peace with knowing that who I am is ok ...that who I am not is also ok ...that I am the person that I AM made me to be...
I have heard that it takes fifty good things to be said in order to erase one bad thing... Small steps...let's see what comes to mind today when I remember what God has called me:
complete holy righteous faithful Mine remembered held uplifted
restored set free
blessed beautiful perfected renamed set apart redeemed
precious full alive chosen rich loved treasured special thought of
adored filled strengthened watched over sought out
pursued desired wanted
needed special gem shining bright emptied savored
cared for forgiven
known searched favored spoken for trusted His
All we can do is kill off the bad, one stab at a time.
But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God's own possession, so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him
who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light
1 Peter 2:9
God called us His....I guess the daily question to remember is:
Who's voice is winning in your mind today?
Listening to His Truth once again while looking up as always...