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Sunday, August 30, 2009

I Gotcha!

So many things have happened in my life, my heart and my mind over the last 2 weeks. While God's power was on display in Brazil, His hand was steadily placed under my chin as He worked to steady my gaze on His eyes. He taught me a simple truth: I am not in control.
I know it sounds so basic...but it is the hardest simple truth I have ever had to grasp. To know that I am not in control over what happens around me... that I am not even in control over my own emotions as those things happen...it is mind boggling. I have absolutely no control over anything more than where my eyes are focused.

Am I looking at myself...at what is going on and how I feel about it all OR am I looking at Him to see where He is leading?

As my life here at home slowly moves back to its natural rhythym, I find myself praying to keep the peace that I found in the steady warmth of His hand on my chin. I let it slip from His grasp for a moment today and instantly felt surrounded by fear, doubt and pain...a pool of emotion that I hate to swim in.

It took the loving reminder from a dear friend to get my eyes back on Him...to bring my heart back to the truth that it isn't who is here or what is happening around me that defines me...it is the fact that God is here...that He isn't a "feeling" that comes & goes and that I am His.

(*pause the playlist all the way at the bottom of this page before pushing play*)

Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from Him.
Truly He is my rock and salvation;
He is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
my hope comes from Him.
My salvation and honor depend on God;
He is my mighty rock, my refuge.
Trust in Him at all times...
Pour yourself out to

for God is my refuge.
Ps. 62:1-2,5,7-8

Looking up as always...


alicia said...

Hmmm... If ever I doubted how little I am in control and how very awesome and amazing God truly is, today would end that. Your post. My devotional today. THE SAME THING. "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. "your natural preference is to plan out your day, knowing what will happen when. My preference is for you to depend on Me continually, trusting Me to guide you and strengthen you as needed. This is how you grow strong in your weakness" I was actually going to blog around it tonight. Don't know yet for sure, but it spoke volumes to me today. And then, here you were. God is Good. (I think He's trying to tell one of us something though!)

Bina said...

Thank for you that, Alicia. I woke up early today so I could be ready for some appointments scheduled...and neither one showed up on time. I have been groggy and emotional...and when I just read what you put on here, it brought a tear to my eyes... Gentle reminders...aren't they grand?!?!

Brazil Team 2009 said...

I think God dribbles His goodness into our challenging days to declare His presence and the depth of His love for us.

I think you just got dribbled on. :-)

Bina said...

You make-ah me laugh-ah, Miss Suz!!!


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